Friday, April 18, 2008

The Drastic is becoming The Normal

I am thrilled to report that I managed to keep the whole 4-pound Sunday Vomit Loss off this week! :-) This brings my total loss in just about exactly two months to (drum roll please) 18.8 pounds! Since I said when I started The Drastic that I wanted to lose 20 pounds before my trip in May, I think it's pretty certain I'll meet that goal and maybe (not to count my pounds before they are gone) go beyond. Needless to say, this makes me pretty darn happy.

As I said to a friend this week, it's starting to feel like The Drastic is becoming The Normal. This feels like a huge sigh of relief to me. I have been struggling for pretty much the past 5 years since I quit smoking (and even more so in the past almost-4 years since meeting DB and starting my voyage into Happy Fat) against falling into the abyss of old habits that I used to have before The Big Loss. Now, after two months of The Drastic, I am starting to feel a little bit comfortable with the idea of this being The Normal again. And, my friends, that is a really great feeling.

Of course, this means that I have to be vigilant. And I have to be vigilant forever. I know none of us wants to hear that and some (maybe most) of us RESENT that it seems like so much of the world doesn't have to live with what we feel are RESTRICTIONS. But, I'm afraid, that's how it is for me. And that's how it probably is for a lot of you too if you are here reading this. However, I'm working at changing my outlook: just because I have to be vigilant, doesn't mean that I can't have a treat, a REAL treat, once in a while. I can even have a treat once a week. I just can't have a treat (or 5) every frickin' day!! And I can live with that.

Some days I may look at thin people and be mad when I see them eating a bag of chips with apparently no effect...but I have to get a grip on reality and realize that that is not me. I can't do that. And that doesn't mean I should be mad at the universe or at the thinnies or at my parents or at the chip companies...it just means that I have to accept who I am and live with it. In general, I am very good at that, but weight is such a heavy subject (ha ha) for me...it gets me in my gut (ha ha again)...and it's the toughest thing for me to confront and deal with. But I'm trying.

OK, on another note: as the bulge is going away, I'm starting to see a lot of cellulite and saggy skin over the muscles in my thighs and tummy (I've never had it on my tummy before -- yikes!). Any hot ideas about how to minimize this unsightliness??

Looking forward to tough yoga tomorrow afternoon...other than that, I have no real set-in-stone plans for the weekend and that is refreshing...I am looking forward to some really good relaxation. :-)

5 comments:

Grumpy Chair said...

You are super fantastic and inspirational! Almost a 20 pound weight loss in 2 months!!!!!

I'm so proud for you. I'm doing the Drastic and hope by April 30th to report a loss.

Vickie said...

PILATES

don't be sad - get mad - and turn that mad feeling into gusto to get it gone. I have said many times - it was my belly fat that kept me going. Every single day I am still amazed when i sit down and nothing is on my lap.

glad things are going well.

FOCUS and EVEN-ness are my words. How I think about it. It seems more positive, empowering.

ar said...

This is ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC Helen. You are of course so right about us having to be vigilant. I had lived the "drastic becoming the normal" for four years. Took at least two years to feel comfortable in that and to trust myself again. So probably will be the same now. But good for you. Am totally envious too of course, but proud of you as you did this WHILE YOU WERE HAVING FUN. Just as you had intended. Good stuff.

Maybe the loose skin needs some time to sort itself out. Give yourself a year or two, and if still there possibly think about plastic surgery then. If it really bothers you that much. Some of it can be due to age as well of course. Four years are enough to make changes that cannot only be ascribed to weight.

Vickie said...

I thought about digging out photos - but would have checked with you first to be sure it was okay to put your pics on my flcker account - ???

Cindy154 said...

What an uplifting post! You are doing fantastic. And I know what you mean about the Drastic being the Normal. since you lost a big chunk fairly fast, your body may just need to catch up with in the area of firming up. What you are seeing now is not the end result, it's the transition. Keep working at it with the exercise and it will get better. Mine has. Lately I have noticed an improvement in my belly area since I have been working my abs more often. I feel like my body is adjusting, but I am helping it along with the regular exercise. I am still awestruck with the 18 pounds. That gives me hope to keep going!!1