I am thrilled to report that I managed to keep the whole 4-pound Sunday Vomit Loss off this week! :-) This brings my total loss in just about exactly two months to (drum roll please) 18.8 pounds! Since I said when I started The Drastic that I wanted to lose 20 pounds before my trip in May, I think it's pretty certain I'll meet that goal and maybe (not to count my pounds before they are gone) go beyond. Needless to say, this makes me pretty darn happy.
As I said to a friend this week, it's starting to feel like The Drastic is becoming The Normal. This feels like a huge sigh of relief to me. I have been struggling for pretty much the past 5 years since I quit smoking (and even more so in the past almost-4 years since meeting DB and starting my voyage into Happy Fat) against falling into the abyss of old habits that I used to have before The Big Loss. Now, after two months of The Drastic, I am starting to feel a little bit comfortable with the idea of this being The Normal again. And, my friends, that is a really great feeling.
Of course, this means that I have to be vigilant. And I have to be vigilant forever. I know none of us wants to hear that and some (maybe most) of us RESENT that it seems like so much of the world doesn't have to live with what we feel are RESTRICTIONS. But, I'm afraid, that's how it is for me. And that's how it probably is for a lot of you too if you are here reading this. However, I'm working at changing my outlook: just because I have to be vigilant, doesn't mean that I can't have a treat, a REAL treat, once in a while. I can even have a treat once a week. I just can't have a treat (or 5) every frickin' day!! And I can live with that.
Some days I may look at thin people and be mad when I see them eating a bag of chips with apparently no effect...but I have to get a grip on reality and realize that that is not me. I can't do that. And that doesn't mean I should be mad at the universe or at the thinnies or at my parents or at the chip companies...it just means that I have to accept who I am and live with it. In general, I am very good at that, but weight is such a heavy subject (ha ha) for me...it gets me in my gut (ha ha again)...and it's the toughest thing for me to confront and deal with. But I'm trying.
OK, on another note: as the bulge is going away, I'm starting to see a lot of cellulite and saggy skin over the muscles in my thighs and tummy (I've never had it on my tummy before -- yikes!). Any hot ideas about how to minimize this unsightliness??
Looking forward to tough yoga tomorrow afternoon...other than that, I have no real set-in-stone plans for the weekend and that is refreshing...I am looking forward to some really good relaxation. :-)