I'm down .6 pounds today and I'll take it! I was a little bad this week: one martini on Monday night, two lunch salads that were probably less fatty than I thought, one sushi dinner w/ edamame and some (low fat) chips that DB left at my house (naughty DB!). I also have really been working on getting my muscles back so hopefully the small-ish loss this week is because I'm converting some fat to muscle! One thing for sure: my clothes are fitting and looking better. I had on some jeans last weekend that I haven't worn in probably over a year. :-) I hope I can just maintain while we're away next week...I know I'll be eating and drinking more, but hopefully will be exercising enough too.
Also, for those of you who have been following the saga this week, Angry One apologized to DB last evening at the hospital. A step in the right direction -- although he probably needs some therapy or anger management -- if he would just realize it. The sibs are working out a schedule to stay with the parents so life will be a little easier knowing when they have to be there rather than just having to drop everything when some kind of meltdown happens. Hopefully...
DB is on his way home soon from Parents' Hometown and I am very excited to get this party started!!
Thanks to all of you for your good wishes for vacation -- I'll try to check in, but if I can't, know that I'm thinking of all of you and looking forward to catching up when I'm back home.
Friday, January 26, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Getting ready for VACATION!
We're leaving early Saturday morning to go to Lake Tahoe for a week -- skiing, gambling and relaxing. Mmmmmm. I'm so excited!! A couple of couples are joining us for the week -- we've rented a big house with three bedrooms and a nice hot tub out back. It looks great on-line...hope it is in "real life".
So far so good with DB's dad. He had his gall bladder out yesterday and DB has been doing the overnight shifts at the hospital keeping an eye on everything. He really needs the vacation too! Hopefully tomorrow his dad will be a little more coherent...since yesterday he's been pretty delirious. :-(
I did very well with my food today -- sooo busy at work pre-vacation that I had no time to be hungry. Of course, with vacation next week, all bets are off, but hopefully I will be able to be "good"ish and will be exercising by skiing and whatever else we do. Weigh-in tomorrow...I'll hopefully have a minute to post then.
We are supposed to have wifi at the house in Tahoe so I may be able to blog from there, but maybe not. Be good. :-)
So far so good with DB's dad. He had his gall bladder out yesterday and DB has been doing the overnight shifts at the hospital keeping an eye on everything. He really needs the vacation too! Hopefully tomorrow his dad will be a little more coherent...since yesterday he's been pretty delirious. :-(
I did very well with my food today -- sooo busy at work pre-vacation that I had no time to be hungry. Of course, with vacation next week, all bets are off, but hopefully I will be able to be "good"ish and will be exercising by skiing and whatever else we do. Weigh-in tomorrow...I'll hopefully have a minute to post then.
We are supposed to have wifi at the house in Tahoe so I may be able to blog from there, but maybe not. Be good. :-)
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
I honestly don't know where to begin...
...so I think I'll start with the happy part of today: it's my niece's big 10th birthday today! My niece (I'll call her Muffin) is an amazing person and I remember 10 years ago today so vividly. When I got the call saying Muffin was born, it was one of the happiest moments of my life. And since then it has just gotten better and better...she's a smart, beautiful, talented, loving, all-around fantastic gift in my life. My biggest treat and joy today was getting to talk with her (she lives in NYC so I didn't get to see her). :-)
Whew...the hard stuff...DB's having some challenging family stuff this week. His parents are declining and DB and his 5 siblings are trying to allow them to stay in their own home. Unfortunately, this means that one of them needs to be there all the time. None of the sibs lives in the same town, but DB lives the closest (1 1/2 hours away). One of DB's brothers (who lives many many hours away in a faraway state -- I'll call him Angry One) has spent much of the past year and a half with the parents -- leaving behind his wife and life in Faraway State. This has been HIS CHOICE -- he likes to feel like he's in control, the king, the martyr. Since no one REALLY wants to take on this responsibility, all the sibs have let this go on...and all of them have come to help when needed for short and long terms. DB has done that the most often (although for some reason none of the sibs realizes this).
Well, last week, Angry One (who, by the way, has been totally mean and awful to DB for years) calls DB and says he has to leave for a while. DB is understandably angry -- he has been trying to get Angry One and all the rest of the sibs to agree to a long-term solution for the parents for a long time. All of them (DB included) have been procrastinating...with Angry One there, no one else had to uproot their life to go handle the situation. Now, as several times before, DB is supposed to drop everything to go relieve Angry One. So, DB waits a day to call Angry One back. Angry One does not return that call for a day. Finally, DB calls again and Angry One gets, well, angry and they argue. DB then tries to rally the sibs by telling them that Angry One really needs a break. DB tells Angry One that DB himself will come up at the end of last week and stay for a week until we go on vacation. Angry One never calls DB back.
On Monday this week, DB heads up to the parents house to resolve the situation with Angry One. Angry One ends up yelling terrible mean and irrelevant things at DB. DB finally leaves, but resolves to get a solution with all his sibs. One of DB's sisters (I'll call her Diplomacy) also e-mails everyone to say that they need to make a solution. The sibs seem to be getting in line and trying to figure out a long-term schedule (even though DB and Angry One are very very angry with each other), but then today happens...
DB gets a call this morning that his dad is in the hospital. Angry One is there, bu another sib is needed to help with their mom. Diplomacy is on her way (5 hour drive) and DB jumps in the car immediately too...but not after receiving an upsetting e-mail from another sister (Horseface) saying that, while she just said yesterday that she can only come sporadically to help with the parents due to horse shows which they need to do for their retirement (she and her hubby are RICH), DB should not complain about Angry One, but should just go help. Uh, why don't YOU go help, Horseface?! Grrrrr.
I am angry at all this. DB seems to be getting this attitude from the sibs that he should be the one doing a lot of the caretaking because he lives closest and is self-employed so can just take off when he wants to...yeah, right. (P.S. DB's parents have been less than loving to him for many years...despite this, he has continued to try to be a "good son".) These are 6 people who are all between late 40s and 60 who have long-standing sibling rivalry issues (that I am just seeing) and they cannot for the life of them make joint decisions (although DB, bless him, really really is trying, he is the only one). But they have to. And they want to be ostriches. I can see them all start pointing fingers at each other. And why don't they just hire live-in help? I think there's some kind of obligation they feel that keeps them from doing that.
I am so grateful that my sister and I worked out our sib shit years ago. And that my mom (and dad when he was alive) really talked with us about what to do when they aged.
Grrrr..and that's just the Readers' Digest Condensed Version! Anyway, I feel so bad for DB. I also (selfishly) feel scared that something is going to make us miss our vacation (which I NEED a LOT right now). I really feel like eating and drinking to "comfort" myself. I have been very good at not drinking through all this the past two nights, but I have been a little sloppy with eating although good with exercise. I feel poochy and am glad I don't weigh in until Friday...
In the meantime, I've got work stress trying to get ready for vacation and stress getting stuff at home ready too. Maybe I'll just sleep for a week rather than ski! Speaking of which...I want to head to bed soon...I know this is all just life stuff, but it's been a hard week.
Whew...the hard stuff...DB's having some challenging family stuff this week. His parents are declining and DB and his 5 siblings are trying to allow them to stay in their own home. Unfortunately, this means that one of them needs to be there all the time. None of the sibs lives in the same town, but DB lives the closest (1 1/2 hours away). One of DB's brothers (who lives many many hours away in a faraway state -- I'll call him Angry One) has spent much of the past year and a half with the parents -- leaving behind his wife and life in Faraway State. This has been HIS CHOICE -- he likes to feel like he's in control, the king, the martyr. Since no one REALLY wants to take on this responsibility, all the sibs have let this go on...and all of them have come to help when needed for short and long terms. DB has done that the most often (although for some reason none of the sibs realizes this).
Well, last week, Angry One (who, by the way, has been totally mean and awful to DB for years) calls DB and says he has to leave for a while. DB is understandably angry -- he has been trying to get Angry One and all the rest of the sibs to agree to a long-term solution for the parents for a long time. All of them (DB included) have been procrastinating...with Angry One there, no one else had to uproot their life to go handle the situation. Now, as several times before, DB is supposed to drop everything to go relieve Angry One. So, DB waits a day to call Angry One back. Angry One does not return that call for a day. Finally, DB calls again and Angry One gets, well, angry and they argue. DB then tries to rally the sibs by telling them that Angry One really needs a break. DB tells Angry One that DB himself will come up at the end of last week and stay for a week until we go on vacation. Angry One never calls DB back.
On Monday this week, DB heads up to the parents house to resolve the situation with Angry One. Angry One ends up yelling terrible mean and irrelevant things at DB. DB finally leaves, but resolves to get a solution with all his sibs. One of DB's sisters (I'll call her Diplomacy) also e-mails everyone to say that they need to make a solution. The sibs seem to be getting in line and trying to figure out a long-term schedule (even though DB and Angry One are very very angry with each other), but then today happens...
DB gets a call this morning that his dad is in the hospital. Angry One is there, bu another sib is needed to help with their mom. Diplomacy is on her way (5 hour drive) and DB jumps in the car immediately too...but not after receiving an upsetting e-mail from another sister (Horseface) saying that, while she just said yesterday that she can only come sporadically to help with the parents due to horse shows which they need to do for their retirement (she and her hubby are RICH), DB should not complain about Angry One, but should just go help. Uh, why don't YOU go help, Horseface?! Grrrrr.
I am angry at all this. DB seems to be getting this attitude from the sibs that he should be the one doing a lot of the caretaking because he lives closest and is self-employed so can just take off when he wants to...yeah, right. (P.S. DB's parents have been less than loving to him for many years...despite this, he has continued to try to be a "good son".) These are 6 people who are all between late 40s and 60 who have long-standing sibling rivalry issues (that I am just seeing) and they cannot for the life of them make joint decisions (although DB, bless him, really really is trying, he is the only one). But they have to. And they want to be ostriches. I can see them all start pointing fingers at each other. And why don't they just hire live-in help? I think there's some kind of obligation they feel that keeps them from doing that.
I am so grateful that my sister and I worked out our sib shit years ago. And that my mom (and dad when he was alive) really talked with us about what to do when they aged.
Grrrr..and that's just the Readers' Digest Condensed Version! Anyway, I feel so bad for DB. I also (selfishly) feel scared that something is going to make us miss our vacation (which I NEED a LOT right now). I really feel like eating and drinking to "comfort" myself. I have been very good at not drinking through all this the past two nights, but I have been a little sloppy with eating although good with exercise. I feel poochy and am glad I don't weigh in until Friday...
In the meantime, I've got work stress trying to get ready for vacation and stress getting stuff at home ready too. Maybe I'll just sleep for a week rather than ski! Speaking of which...I want to head to bed soon...I know this is all just life stuff, but it's been a hard week.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Interesting exercise
I have been thinking how I must have lost gobs in the up-and-down scalestravaganza since October. So, since I have been keeping track, I went back and added up how much I have "lost" since October -- almost 30 pounds!!!!!!!! YIKES. My net loss is just 7.8. What a waste. 
My new goal is to make every pound that comes off STAY off. So there. ;-)
My new goal is to make every pound that comes off STAY off. So there. ;-)
Catching up...
....days and days since I last posted. Things have been busy, but I've been pretty darn good with the food and the WOW program (although I admit to one martini last night after a particular stress-filled day due to work and sweet DB's stress with his siblings over care for their parents...grrr).
Friday night we went to see The Departed. Big mistake. I thought I'd love it because I love Scorsese and Nicholson. WRONG. It was unoriginal, uninspiring, and uninvolving in every way. Comic-book violence at the end. I didn't care about ANY of the characters so when things happened, ho hum. DB thought the filming was kind of interesting in the beginning -- I didn't. When it was over, everyone in the theatre just got up and walked out. No chatter, no reaction, no waiting for credits. From what I read (a little) on IMDB, people who enjoyed it tended to have seen the original Hong Kong version and it sounds like that version had a little more heart/conflict/originality. None of which The Departed had. I absolutely hated it. But I guess that's clear!! ;-)
Still on the movie tip -- let Oscar season abound!! I was THRILLED to see that Little Miss Sunshine did so well -- I absolutely loved that movie. The one scene between the little girl (nominated) and her grandfather (also nominated) was classic. I've asked for the DVD for my (very soon upcoming) birthday. :-) Of course, I was very disappointed that The Departed is nominated -- ick. Although Markie Mark (!) did give a pretty good performance (as did Leo), it wasn't worth over two hours of my (or anyone else's) time. Scorsese might win for this and that will be a travesty...I can name plenty more of his films (like all of them!) who deserve it more (and I love him). I can't wait to see Babel...maybe while we're on vacation next week. I was a little sorry to see that Sascha didn't get nominated for Best Actor for Borat because it was a truly unique character creation -- but maybe he'll still get to present and that will be fun. An Inconvenient Truth is awesome...big ups for that as Best Documentary! It actually changed the way I live my life...in small ways, but still...
I did manage to get to the gym this weekend despite social life (hanging with some Burning Man friends who were in town and with my best friend and her mom) and preps for vacation (including yet another trip to the vet with Doglet).
This week will be hectic pre-vacation at work and in the evenings, so may be a little scarce here. Or not! I guess it all depends on what shakes out! I'm very excited for our week in Tahoe next week -- skiing, gambling, RESTING. :-) We have rented a house so since we'll have a full-on kitchen I should have some pretty good control over food. At least as good as is realistic for VACATION and BIRTHDAYS! ;-)
Friday night we went to see The Departed. Big mistake. I thought I'd love it because I love Scorsese and Nicholson. WRONG. It was unoriginal, uninspiring, and uninvolving in every way. Comic-book violence at the end. I didn't care about ANY of the characters so when things happened, ho hum. DB thought the filming was kind of interesting in the beginning -- I didn't. When it was over, everyone in the theatre just got up and walked out. No chatter, no reaction, no waiting for credits. From what I read (a little) on IMDB, people who enjoyed it tended to have seen the original Hong Kong version and it sounds like that version had a little more heart/conflict/originality. None of which The Departed had. I absolutely hated it. But I guess that's clear!! ;-)
Still on the movie tip -- let Oscar season abound!! I was THRILLED to see that Little Miss Sunshine did so well -- I absolutely loved that movie. The one scene between the little girl (nominated) and her grandfather (also nominated) was classic. I've asked for the DVD for my (very soon upcoming) birthday. :-) Of course, I was very disappointed that The Departed is nominated -- ick. Although Markie Mark (!) did give a pretty good performance (as did Leo), it wasn't worth over two hours of my (or anyone else's) time. Scorsese might win for this and that will be a travesty...I can name plenty more of his films (like all of them!) who deserve it more (and I love him). I can't wait to see Babel...maybe while we're on vacation next week. I was a little sorry to see that Sascha didn't get nominated for Best Actor for Borat because it was a truly unique character creation -- but maybe he'll still get to present and that will be fun. An Inconvenient Truth is awesome...big ups for that as Best Documentary! It actually changed the way I live my life...in small ways, but still...
I did manage to get to the gym this weekend despite social life (hanging with some Burning Man friends who were in town and with my best friend and her mom) and preps for vacation (including yet another trip to the vet with Doglet).
This week will be hectic pre-vacation at work and in the evenings, so may be a little scarce here. Or not! I guess it all depends on what shakes out! I'm very excited for our week in Tahoe next week -- skiing, gambling, RESTING. :-) We have rented a house so since we'll have a full-on kitchen I should have some pretty good control over food. At least as good as is realistic for VACATION and BIRTHDAYS! ;-)
Friday, January 19, 2007
New weigh-in day -- Down 1.4! :-)
In order to be consistent with a weight-watching board that I frequent (and also because I was up 1/2 pound from last Thursday yesterday), I am starting to weigh on Fridays. And today I'm DOWN 1.4 pounds from last Thursday. Emotionally I feel a lot better. Think that has anything to do with it?! ;-)
The WOW (wine on weekends) program (along with regular gym-going) seems to be working well -- even though it was a struggle last night, I hope that with a little work the habit will get easier and easier. I think Vickie's comment on my last post about working off the alcohol calories is interesting...
Wishing everyone a great healthy weekend!
The WOW (wine on weekends) program (along with regular gym-going) seems to be working well -- even though it was a struggle last night, I hope that with a little work the habit will get easier and easier. I think Vickie's comment on my last post about working off the alcohol calories is interesting...
Wishing everyone a great healthy weekend!
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Dr. Jekyll and Ms. PMS
Grrrr...sob! That's been my day today. And it sucks. I think it's PMS and I never had it like this before I was taking hormones. Grrrrr.
Everything, and I mean everything, today either made me sad, depressed, weepy or mad. Food was only so-so -- I had a salad at lunch that had "bad" dressing on it, TCBY fat-free frozen yogurt after dinner and also some more nori maki when I got home. The only really good thing I can say is that I managed somehow to stick to my no drinking rule.
Took my kitty in for a shave and bath and ended up having lots of test to check up on him. He's old, diabetic, sometimes incontinent, but he still likes to eat (definitely MY cat!) and lounge. He doesn't clean himself anymore (and he's white) so that's why the shave and bath. He looks ultra-cute when he's shaved so that's ok. But it was very expensive. And this after the vet visits for Doglet this week have really put a huge hole in my checking account. I'll have to dig into my (kind of meager) savings for vacation expenses at the end of the month. This is very depressing. But I have to take care of my pets -- I committed to them a long time ago and it's not fair to let them suffer just because they are older.
I also was hating my job today -- this hardly ever happens. I'm serious -- everything today just looks dark. This is so not like me that I know it's gotta be the hormones. BUT, I'm not getting hot flashes like I was and am getting my period as I should be. It's complicated.
And DB and I are both dealing with older parents and that is, well, not terribly fun.
So I was either growling or crying today. At least I wasn't soooo hungry like yesterday. Looking for happy things...and looking forward to happier day tomorrow.
Oh yeah, weighed in this morning and I was up 1/2 pound. It's gotta be PMS because I have been pretty darn good with food and going to the gym, etc. I think I'll weigh tomorrow too and hope to have at least a little off...
Discombobulated...that's what this post is...and that's how I feel today. Hopefully tomorrow will be less blue.
Everything, and I mean everything, today either made me sad, depressed, weepy or mad. Food was only so-so -- I had a salad at lunch that had "bad" dressing on it, TCBY fat-free frozen yogurt after dinner and also some more nori maki when I got home. The only really good thing I can say is that I managed somehow to stick to my no drinking rule.
Took my kitty in for a shave and bath and ended up having lots of test to check up on him. He's old, diabetic, sometimes incontinent, but he still likes to eat (definitely MY cat!) and lounge. He doesn't clean himself anymore (and he's white) so that's why the shave and bath. He looks ultra-cute when he's shaved so that's ok. But it was very expensive. And this after the vet visits for Doglet this week have really put a huge hole in my checking account. I'll have to dig into my (kind of meager) savings for vacation expenses at the end of the month. This is very depressing. But I have to take care of my pets -- I committed to them a long time ago and it's not fair to let them suffer just because they are older.
I also was hating my job today -- this hardly ever happens. I'm serious -- everything today just looks dark. This is so not like me that I know it's gotta be the hormones. BUT, I'm not getting hot flashes like I was and am getting my period as I should be. It's complicated.
And DB and I are both dealing with older parents and that is, well, not terribly fun.
So I was either growling or crying today. At least I wasn't soooo hungry like yesterday. Looking for happy things...and looking forward to happier day tomorrow.
Oh yeah, weighed in this morning and I was up 1/2 pound. It's gotta be PMS because I have been pretty darn good with food and going to the gym, etc. I think I'll weigh tomorrow too and hope to have at least a little off...
Discombobulated...that's what this post is...and that's how I feel today. Hopefully tomorrow will be less blue.
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