Even better...but confused

So this morning I did something I almost never do: I weighed in during the week. I just had to know that the gain last week was an aberration and...I was down over 4 pounds. This is just silly. Vickie always says she lets herself have a 2 pound leeway because over 2 is when it becomes "real", but I often have these silly fluctuations, so...

I'm confused. I have not done anything this week that I have not been doing (most weeks) since January. Four pounds seems like a lot. Now, I'm happy with it and I don't know if it will last until Friday when I officially weigh-in, but how can a person fluctuate that much? I remember Lori writing that her scale was making her laugh with the low weights it was showing...in my case, I think today's weight is a lot more "real" than the sucky weigh-in last Friday (I'm possibly deluding myself, of course).

Anyway, this whole thing is really confusing me so much because I am doing the same (or better) foodwise and exercisewise than when I lost all my weight back in the mid-90s. This time I have so (relatively) little to lose, but it's incredibly harder. I know I've written about this before, but it's still bugging me.

To make myself feel better, I decided today to look at the bright side: since January 1, I have "lost" (I'll believe it when it stays off and starts going down consistently) 10 pounds. I am not going to count from back in October when I officially started to try to lose weight -- I couldn't exercise really until January due to knee recovery so my possibility of actual continuing weight loss was dim, I think. If I tell myself I really started in January, I feel much better. So play along, will ya? ;-)