Drum roll please...
I lost another 0.6 pounds this week (I'm happy with ANY loss this week due to beer/wine last weekend and soy sauce on Monday) for a grand total during this period of The Drastic of 23.8 pounds (no, I won't say 24 yet!). :-)
I am also wearing "new" pants today -- bought them about a year and a half ago in anticipation of losing (which I do not usually do and don't recommend) and never have been able to wear before now. Feels GOOD.
I won't lie -- I am worried about gaining next week even though I have been saying that I'm expecting to gain 5 pounds. I hope I won't freak out when I get on the scale when I come home, but I am not going to WORRY about food and drink while I'm on vacation...that doesn't seem very vacation-y to me. I will, however, continue to try to still PAY ATTENTION to what I'm eating and drinking. And I will exercise each day even if it's just a walk on the beach. I will try to get to yoga class at least once and maybe some private practice on the beach or in our cabana. We will bike. We will snorkel. Yay! And I will get back on The Drastic when we get home.
I started packing last night and it felt good to try on shorts and smaller tops and feel like I look good. I have to be honest and say that I haven't really felt that way in a long time. I even tried on some tops that I determined were just too big -- I firmly believe in wearing clothes that FIT to make me look slimmer -- wearing too big or too small makes me look fatter.
So...our flight to Cancun leaves tomorrow morning at 10 am. My mom is coming over tonight because she is staying with Doglet until our pet sitter gets back from Cannes on Monday (nice life, eh?). We'll probably leave for the airport around 8 or 8:30 in the morning and we'll get in to Cancun around 5 pm their time (3 pm LA time). After that it's about an hour and a half drive to our cabana on the beach in Tulum. I can almost smell the air... :-)
Probably won't be blogging next week, but you never know -- despite the fact that the beach area in Tulum is off the electrical grid, our place has wind and solar energy and is supposed to have wireless internet access too!!
Friday, May 23, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Getting "There" and Being Here
Where is "There"? I've been thinking about this...
I've been feeling like I'm getting There with my weight and my exercise and my yoga and my Drastic becoming Normal. But I am still not sure where There is. And it gets tricky when I feel like I might be almost There...I feel myself getting comfortable with Here. And that is actually great...when I'm in maintenance! But when I get comfortable with Here and Here is not There, then I can lapse and never get There and slide back into...There. Interesting how behind me is There and ahead of me is also There...I think this is definitely why it's important to learn how to be Here. :-)
Not sure if any of that will make sense to anyone else, but it's kind of an abstract of what I'm observing in my reality lately. Getting to a weight where I really want to be is much more of a reality than it has been for a few years. When I feel that way, I start to feel a little lax in my Drastic. Truthfully, this is probably healthy...I read somewhere this weekend that asking yourself to be perfect when losing weight 100% of the time is a losing battle. This thing said that we should try to AVERAGE 80%...some days will be 120% because you just do great, some days will be maybe 50%, but the AVERAGE is what counts. I agree with this, but I feel myself getting scared of getting too comfortable. So I still am watching myself carefully...I put on clothes that are not loose...this reminds me to keep going because people really notice the loss and I don't have room to grow! (Today I have the Talbots 12s on...looser than a few weeks ago and now perfect.)
I guess all this might come from my weekend and our upcoming trip to Mexico. Last weekend at the party we went to on Friday night I had about 3 big glasses of red wine and some "forbidden" foods (bites of pita after dark, cashews, pita chips, hummus). I woke up feeling all cotton-mouthed and yucky...haven't had this feeling since February and I don't like it. I also had some beer and wine on Sat. and 3 beers on Sunday. This was a lot less than I "normally" would drink and there were no ill effects. I ate well both those days, walked 2 miles round-trip to sweaty yoga on Saturday and went to the gym on Sunday too plus a couple other beach walks. But the booze worried me because I will definitely be drinking next week in an environment where I won't be able to control the snacks which are available as much (at home I always have jerky, radishes, artichokes, lean lunch meat for when I get snacky). I don't want to blow up when I drink my first margarita. So I guess I was experimenting last weekend. Since I have the pants on, I probably did ok...hopefully with the exercise I did a maintain (I haven't gotten on the scale -- had some soy sauce last night when I made a tofu/ginger/cabbage stir-fry -- one of my favorites when DB is gone 'cause he doesn't really like it like I do). Side note on sodium -- it TOTALLY affects me (I know no one will be surprised). I had an old ring on yesterday that I haven't been able to wear in a long time...it fit great and that was just another NSV for me. This morning post-soy sauce -- I couldn't get it on!
We also did a lot of other stuff last weekend to get ready for the trip -- bought last-minute clothes and supplies. We're trying to go "light", but even though we're taking minimal clothes (I'm planning on 3 swimming suits, 3 shorts, 3ish sarongs, a few shirts, a dress, Tevas, water shoes and flip flops, basically), snorkel gear takes up a lot of room! So we'll be taking one big suitcase and one small for 8 days for two people...should be ok. I hope so!!
DB is gone this week on business so I'm wrapping up the home fires (he'll be back on Friday and we leave Saturday morning) and my own work fires (of which, of course, there seem to be a LOT the week before vacation...I guess I'm lucky next weekend is Memorial Day and a lot of people have already left for vacation THIS week!). I'm feeling a little stressed out although we are very well planned -- some chest and arm and head discomfort this morning. I think I just need the vacation A LOT...or maybe it's my screwed up hormones. Dear God, please don't let me have a heart attack or stroke this close to vacation!! ;-)
If anyone hasn't been around in a few days, be sure to read the post below about the infomercial -- I hope everyone will feel free to send along to any friends they might have who might qualify -- I know it's hard for a lot of people to confront that they need to lose that much (I'm having a hard time getting the people I know to do it), but I think it's a great opportunity -- I'd JUMP on it if I could!!!!
Here's to being Here and appreciating both Theres.
I've been feeling like I'm getting There with my weight and my exercise and my yoga and my Drastic becoming Normal. But I am still not sure where There is. And it gets tricky when I feel like I might be almost There...I feel myself getting comfortable with Here. And that is actually great...when I'm in maintenance! But when I get comfortable with Here and Here is not There, then I can lapse and never get There and slide back into...There. Interesting how behind me is There and ahead of me is also There...I think this is definitely why it's important to learn how to be Here. :-)
Not sure if any of that will make sense to anyone else, but it's kind of an abstract of what I'm observing in my reality lately. Getting to a weight where I really want to be is much more of a reality than it has been for a few years. When I feel that way, I start to feel a little lax in my Drastic. Truthfully, this is probably healthy...I read somewhere this weekend that asking yourself to be perfect when losing weight 100% of the time is a losing battle. This thing said that we should try to AVERAGE 80%...some days will be 120% because you just do great, some days will be maybe 50%, but the AVERAGE is what counts. I agree with this, but I feel myself getting scared of getting too comfortable. So I still am watching myself carefully...I put on clothes that are not loose...this reminds me to keep going because people really notice the loss and I don't have room to grow! (Today I have the Talbots 12s on...looser than a few weeks ago and now perfect.)
I guess all this might come from my weekend and our upcoming trip to Mexico. Last weekend at the party we went to on Friday night I had about 3 big glasses of red wine and some "forbidden" foods (bites of pita after dark, cashews, pita chips, hummus). I woke up feeling all cotton-mouthed and yucky...haven't had this feeling since February and I don't like it. I also had some beer and wine on Sat. and 3 beers on Sunday. This was a lot less than I "normally" would drink and there were no ill effects. I ate well both those days, walked 2 miles round-trip to sweaty yoga on Saturday and went to the gym on Sunday too plus a couple other beach walks. But the booze worried me because I will definitely be drinking next week in an environment where I won't be able to control the snacks which are available as much (at home I always have jerky, radishes, artichokes, lean lunch meat for when I get snacky). I don't want to blow up when I drink my first margarita. So I guess I was experimenting last weekend. Since I have the pants on, I probably did ok...hopefully with the exercise I did a maintain (I haven't gotten on the scale -- had some soy sauce last night when I made a tofu/ginger/cabbage stir-fry -- one of my favorites when DB is gone 'cause he doesn't really like it like I do). Side note on sodium -- it TOTALLY affects me (I know no one will be surprised). I had an old ring on yesterday that I haven't been able to wear in a long time...it fit great and that was just another NSV for me. This morning post-soy sauce -- I couldn't get it on!
We also did a lot of other stuff last weekend to get ready for the trip -- bought last-minute clothes and supplies. We're trying to go "light", but even though we're taking minimal clothes (I'm planning on 3 swimming suits, 3 shorts, 3ish sarongs, a few shirts, a dress, Tevas, water shoes and flip flops, basically), snorkel gear takes up a lot of room! So we'll be taking one big suitcase and one small for 8 days for two people...should be ok. I hope so!!
DB is gone this week on business so I'm wrapping up the home fires (he'll be back on Friday and we leave Saturday morning) and my own work fires (of which, of course, there seem to be a LOT the week before vacation...I guess I'm lucky next weekend is Memorial Day and a lot of people have already left for vacation THIS week!). I'm feeling a little stressed out although we are very well planned -- some chest and arm and head discomfort this morning. I think I just need the vacation A LOT...or maybe it's my screwed up hormones. Dear God, please don't let me have a heart attack or stroke this close to vacation!! ;-)
If anyone hasn't been around in a few days, be sure to read the post below about the infomercial -- I hope everyone will feel free to send along to any friends they might have who might qualify -- I know it's hard for a lot of people to confront that they need to lose that much (I'm having a hard time getting the people I know to do it), but I think it's a great opportunity -- I'd JUMP on it if I could!!!!
Here's to being Here and appreciating both Theres.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Calling all L.A. weight losers!!!!
It's tiiiiiime!!
Remember that great infomercial opportunity I blogged about way back in November-January? Well, it's finally time to do it! You must have at least 75 pounds to lose and be in the L.A. area. I wish I could do this -- free delicious food for at least 13 weeks?! WOW. See details below. And if you contact Roxanne, tell her you heard about this from my blog (and post a comment to me too if you have time -- I'm excited for you!)!
WEIGHT LOSS INFOMERCIAL TESTIMONIALS!
Would you like to lose weight, improve your health and have fresh, delicious and nutritious meals delivered to your door for 13 weeks? Would you like to enjoy a variety of wholesome foods, and cut out the hassle of planning meals, shopping, and cooking?
We are seeking men and women between 25 and 50 years of age who have between 75 and 125 pounds to lose. (And minors 18 years + with parent[s] consent.) Potential candidates can be either sedentary and once were active OR should currently be exercising and are not achieving the results they desire. Selected participants will receive healthfully prepared, energy enhancing, balanced meals and snacks for 13 weeks for FREE (a $2,730 value)!! In addition, we will help educate you in effective food combining, proper portion sizes and how to eat well, so that you can achieve your weight loss goals! You will be motivated throughout the program as your results are tracked and recorded. You may even be chosen to appear in an Infomercial for this Meal Delivery Program!
In order to be considered for this very special opportunity, participants must provide the following information:
• Name, Phone number, address, e-mail address and age
• Current height and Weight
• Weight loss goal
• A current photo in JPEG format
You MUST live in Los Angeles between the boundaries of Los Feliz and Santa Monica in order to participate!
THE PROGRAM BEGINS IN MID JUNE, SO PLEASE CONTACT US AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!! PLEASE E-MAIL REQUESTED INFORMATION ABOVE TO:
roxsteiny at earthlink.net - ASAP!!!!!!!
Remember that great infomercial opportunity I blogged about way back in November-January? Well, it's finally time to do it! You must have at least 75 pounds to lose and be in the L.A. area. I wish I could do this -- free delicious food for at least 13 weeks?! WOW. See details below. And if you contact Roxanne, tell her you heard about this from my blog (and post a comment to me too if you have time -- I'm excited for you!)!
WEIGHT LOSS INFOMERCIAL TESTIMONIALS!
Would you like to lose weight, improve your health and have fresh, delicious and nutritious meals delivered to your door for 13 weeks? Would you like to enjoy a variety of wholesome foods, and cut out the hassle of planning meals, shopping, and cooking?
We are seeking men and women between 25 and 50 years of age who have between 75 and 125 pounds to lose. (And minors 18 years + with parent[s] consent.) Potential candidates can be either sedentary and once were active OR should currently be exercising and are not achieving the results they desire. Selected participants will receive healthfully prepared, energy enhancing, balanced meals and snacks for 13 weeks for FREE (a $2,730 value)!! In addition, we will help educate you in effective food combining, proper portion sizes and how to eat well, so that you can achieve your weight loss goals! You will be motivated throughout the program as your results are tracked and recorded. You may even be chosen to appear in an Infomercial for this Meal Delivery Program!
In order to be considered for this very special opportunity, participants must provide the following information:
• Name, Phone number, address, e-mail address and age
• Current height and Weight
• Weight loss goal
• A current photo in JPEG format
You MUST live in Los Angeles between the boundaries of Los Feliz and Santa Monica in order to participate!
THE PROGRAM BEGINS IN MID JUNE, SO PLEASE CONTACT US AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!! PLEASE E-MAIL REQUESTED INFORMATION ABOVE TO:
roxsteiny at earthlink.net - ASAP!!!!!!!
Friday, May 16, 2008
Being happy with the Weigh-In
Today I am down another 1.4 pounds from last week. That brings the grand total to over 23 pounds, I think (sorry, blogging fast this morning so no time to confirm my numbers but, if you're interested, you can do the math as all my numbers are in last Friday's post below). With one week to go before departure for Mexico, I am very happy with this. :-)
The funny thing is that the more weight I lose, the more "bad" details I see with my body. I don't remember noticing these things 23 pounds ago (and I won't enumerate them here and give them even more power to obsess me!). But, since I am noticing them now (or allowing myself to notice them maybe), they are troubling me. So I have to spend a lot of energy focusing on the loss, the clothes that feel and fit better, etc. I know I'll probably never feel perfect and somehow have to come to terms with that...again.
Got up early this morning and walked with DB to our local farmers market (just 4 blocks from our house). The produce, etc. was beautiful, but...wow...EXPENSIVE. I used to go to farmers markets once a week to get the freshest/in-season stuff, but stopped (now I remember) because things were cheaper at Trader Joes. Sad, but true. But we splurged on a few things -- fresh cherries, corn on the cob, cabbage, yellow squash and radishes. I'll figure out some concoction to make tomorrow night with all this (minus the cherries which DB and my office will eat today!). DB is out of town again all next week on business so I'll be back to all salads!! This serves the dual purpose of getting off that last little bit of weight before vacation and making me so sick of lettuce-type food that I won't feel bad about not risking lettuce in Mexico. ;-)
Super busy weekend coming up: birthday party/dinner for a friend tonight, hardwood floor repair at the house all day tomorrow starting at 8 am (yawn, I'm tired already!), yoga, pre-vacation pedicure and brow wax, shopping for final stuff for vacation and birthday gifts for one of the grandkids and (hopefully) Raconteurs show on Sunday night (tickets go on sale in about an hour and a half and we're crossing our fingers!). Oh yeah, I've got to fit another gym or yoga in there somewhere on Sunday...and I will. :-)
Wishing everyone a great weekend!
The funny thing is that the more weight I lose, the more "bad" details I see with my body. I don't remember noticing these things 23 pounds ago (and I won't enumerate them here and give them even more power to obsess me!). But, since I am noticing them now (or allowing myself to notice them maybe), they are troubling me. So I have to spend a lot of energy focusing on the loss, the clothes that feel and fit better, etc. I know I'll probably never feel perfect and somehow have to come to terms with that...again.
Got up early this morning and walked with DB to our local farmers market (just 4 blocks from our house). The produce, etc. was beautiful, but...wow...EXPENSIVE. I used to go to farmers markets once a week to get the freshest/in-season stuff, but stopped (now I remember) because things were cheaper at Trader Joes. Sad, but true. But we splurged on a few things -- fresh cherries, corn on the cob, cabbage, yellow squash and radishes. I'll figure out some concoction to make tomorrow night with all this (minus the cherries which DB and my office will eat today!). DB is out of town again all next week on business so I'll be back to all salads!! This serves the dual purpose of getting off that last little bit of weight before vacation and making me so sick of lettuce-type food that I won't feel bad about not risking lettuce in Mexico. ;-)
Super busy weekend coming up: birthday party/dinner for a friend tonight, hardwood floor repair at the house all day tomorrow starting at 8 am (yawn, I'm tired already!), yoga, pre-vacation pedicure and brow wax, shopping for final stuff for vacation and birthday gifts for one of the grandkids and (hopefully) Raconteurs show on Sunday night (tickets go on sale in about an hour and a half and we're crossing our fingers!). Oh yeah, I've got to fit another gym or yoga in there somewhere on Sunday...and I will. :-)
Wishing everyone a great weekend!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I never blog on Thursdays...
...because I'm saving my mojo for after my Friday morning weigh-in. But today there are a few things on my mind other than what the scale will say tomorrow:
1. The Pants. I have on this pair of pants that I bought last November and never could wear. About 3 or 4 weeks ago, I put them on and they fit perfectly. Today they are bordering on too loose!! I haven't lost that much weight in the past 3-4 weeks, but I guess I've been toning a lot. While this is something that I admit I'm pretty happy about, I'm kinda sad to see them go by so quickly. They're very nice pants. So, at some point, I'm going to be asking if anyone wants a nice pair of pants that's only been worn a couple of times. Get ready! ;-)
2. Splurging. Vickie's comment on my post yesterday reminded me of how, when I was losing The Big Weight, I would still always have a donut every other Friday at the office. Even doing that, I still lost weight because other than that planned "splurge" I was pretty perfect all the rest of the time with food and exercise. And that's what I was talking about yesterday...I know splurges can come, but I will need to be very vigilant that they don't come every single day as they were for the past few years when, while I was being "good" with food in general, I was splurging every day on SOMEthing. And Vickie is right too about LOOKing...it really is all about paying attention whether before we eat or after.
3. Diets. I know them all. I love reading about what people do to lose weight. I'm sure you all do too. But what I see actually working for most of the people who are really successful with weight loss is this: do what works for you. And I think it's VERY individual (although eat less, move more really says it all). Similar to what I did when losing The Big Weight, I don't look at what I'm doing right now as a diet, but as the way I need to operate from now on. THAT is why a "diet" never worked for me and I don't think it ever will -- a "diet" has a date when it's over. Changing how I look at food and exercise lasts forever (even when I let it go for a few years, I still didn't look at food or exercise the way I did before '94...and I never will again). So my Drastic is a temporary drastic version of what I have to continue to do forever. It's harder this time around...I used to eat a ton of pasta (The Big Weight Loss was all about no-/low-fat and exercise) and still lose weight. My body won't do that anymore. So I rarely eat white carbs at night...no rice, no potatoes, no bread, etc. Night is my tough time so this really works for me...I eat a LOT of veggies at night instead. And, so far, it's working for me...this time.
4. Compliments. DB told me this morning that I look great. This felt very good. But, and I wonder if anyone else can sympathize, it also made me feel scared. Does this mean that he thought I looked bad before? What if I gain weight again? Will he not love or desire me as much? This is a tough one and I am scared. I'm sure I'll blog more about it because it's on my mind more and more...
1. The Pants. I have on this pair of pants that I bought last November and never could wear. About 3 or 4 weeks ago, I put them on and they fit perfectly. Today they are bordering on too loose!! I haven't lost that much weight in the past 3-4 weeks, but I guess I've been toning a lot. While this is something that I admit I'm pretty happy about, I'm kinda sad to see them go by so quickly. They're very nice pants. So, at some point, I'm going to be asking if anyone wants a nice pair of pants that's only been worn a couple of times. Get ready! ;-)
2. Splurging. Vickie's comment on my post yesterday reminded me of how, when I was losing The Big Weight, I would still always have a donut every other Friday at the office. Even doing that, I still lost weight because other than that planned "splurge" I was pretty perfect all the rest of the time with food and exercise. And that's what I was talking about yesterday...I know splurges can come, but I will need to be very vigilant that they don't come every single day as they were for the past few years when, while I was being "good" with food in general, I was splurging every day on SOMEthing. And Vickie is right too about LOOKing...it really is all about paying attention whether before we eat or after.
3. Diets. I know them all. I love reading about what people do to lose weight. I'm sure you all do too. But what I see actually working for most of the people who are really successful with weight loss is this: do what works for you. And I think it's VERY individual (although eat less, move more really says it all). Similar to what I did when losing The Big Weight, I don't look at what I'm doing right now as a diet, but as the way I need to operate from now on. THAT is why a "diet" never worked for me and I don't think it ever will -- a "diet" has a date when it's over. Changing how I look at food and exercise lasts forever (even when I let it go for a few years, I still didn't look at food or exercise the way I did before '94...and I never will again). So my Drastic is a temporary drastic version of what I have to continue to do forever. It's harder this time around...I used to eat a ton of pasta (The Big Weight Loss was all about no-/low-fat and exercise) and still lose weight. My body won't do that anymore. So I rarely eat white carbs at night...no rice, no potatoes, no bread, etc. Night is my tough time so this really works for me...I eat a LOT of veggies at night instead. And, so far, it's working for me...this time.
4. Compliments. DB told me this morning that I look great. This felt very good. But, and I wonder if anyone else can sympathize, it also made me feel scared. Does this mean that he thought I looked bad before? What if I gain weight again? Will he not love or desire me as much? This is a tough one and I am scared. I'm sure I'll blog more about it because it's on my mind more and more...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Feeling good...Salad Week and Reality TV
Very quickee post today with just a couple of things...
Feeling good...another pound down today on a mid-week weigh-in (we'll see if that holds for Friday). DB and I are doing our "Salad Every Night" plan this week and it feels (and tastes) really good.
The interesting thing I'm finding right now is that the more I lose, the more motivated I am to want to keep it up. I guess that's not such a revelation, but it's a switch being thrown in my brain back to where I used to be -- feeling good is worth the discipline it takes (some days) to stay on this path.
I'm still thinking a lot about what's next...how much more do I want to lose? How much more should I lose? Are those the same (I think maybe not)? What happens when I get to whatever ephemeral "goal" I set for myself. Am I going to ever be able to splurge (I know the answer here is "yes, within reason and not every day")? The questions in my head go on and on.
A couple of reality tv notes for any of you who watch Dancing with the Stars and/or American Idol:
Dancing: If you saw Monday's show, you saw my neighborhood!!! The part with Christian and Cheryl at the beach was filmed at the end of my street along the Venice boardwalk. Fun to see. :-)
American Idol: I really really am loving David Cook. I can't wait for him to perform each week (even when songs are lame as some have been lately). The other David is just too darn boring and I think the producers of the show sabotaged Syesha last night.
So there... :-)
Feeling good...another pound down today on a mid-week weigh-in (we'll see if that holds for Friday). DB and I are doing our "Salad Every Night" plan this week and it feels (and tastes) really good.
The interesting thing I'm finding right now is that the more I lose, the more motivated I am to want to keep it up. I guess that's not such a revelation, but it's a switch being thrown in my brain back to where I used to be -- feeling good is worth the discipline it takes (some days) to stay on this path.
I'm still thinking a lot about what's next...how much more do I want to lose? How much more should I lose? Are those the same (I think maybe not)? What happens when I get to whatever ephemeral "goal" I set for myself. Am I going to ever be able to splurge (I know the answer here is "yes, within reason and not every day")? The questions in my head go on and on.
A couple of reality tv notes for any of you who watch Dancing with the Stars and/or American Idol:
Dancing: If you saw Monday's show, you saw my neighborhood!!! The part with Christian and Cheryl at the beach was filmed at the end of my street along the Venice boardwalk. Fun to see. :-)
American Idol: I really really am loving David Cook. I can't wait for him to perform each week (even when songs are lame as some have been lately). The other David is just too darn boring and I think the producers of the show sabotaged Syesha last night.
So there... :-)
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