Despite wanting to hide from the scale for another week (or FOREVER), I sucked it up and got on this morning. Not pretty. Not unexpected, but not pretty. After the complete falling-off-of-the-wagon over the past two weeks, I have managed to now be back to where I started in October (see post re: The Horrible Number...wish I knew how to link!)...plus two pounds. :-( I am trying to look at the bright side of this: it means I will have a tremendous loss in the coming week since I'm back on the wagon today with a vengeance.
I hate New Year's resolutions...I don't think I have ever managed to maintain one for more than a month and I don't know anyone who has done any better. I work better with (in Vickie's terms) "baby steps". One day at a time. No big "I've gotta cut out all of X" or "I'm going to exercise 6 days a week" pronouncements. I find when I do say things like that I get so discouraged when I FAIL (which is inevitable) that I just stop trying. So, what I will say is that I will go back to eating well. I will exercise as much as I can with the restrictions of my knee (the subway stairs in NYC were not its friend). I will (someday...hopefully soon, but SOMEDAY) get back to a weight where I feel more comfortable.
I was inspired this long weekend by (FINALLY) reading Frances Kuffel's book, Passing For Thin (which I asked for and got for Xmas). Wow. It was such a great read -- so many things I related to VERY deeply, so much great humor (DB kept asking me what I was laughing out loud about) and insight (not to mention some truly evocative prose) shining through. I loved it. Of course, it was particularly fun to read since I "know" Frances a little. I wanted more when it was over...can't wait for her next volume! It really helps to know that I'm not alone...I'm sure a lot of us who have read the book feel the same.
Square One Plus Two. I'm looking forward to this coming year...to Square One Minus 30! :-)