Friday, June 5, 2009

Starting anew and staying accountable

I so did NOT want to get on the scale this morning. As evidenced in my post from Wednesday, I was feeling very down this week and that means I didn't do well with what I put in my mouth. But I made myself face the's important to stay accountable to ME and not live in a dream world in which behaving like I did this week does not have consequences.

So this morning I am resolving to start anew. I only have about 6 weeks now to lose before our bathing suit vacation. I have made virtually no progress for the past two months and there is nothing I can do about that now. But I can start anew. I can try to have a better attitude. DB being on the Crack diet will HELP, not hurt, me (earlier this week I was feeling so resentful that he started without me -- and has now lost SEVEN or more pounds! -- that I was actually eating more -- had no real will power). I am going to start it myself next week...will be one week behind him, but we will eat similarly. And this way, I just copy him and don't have to actually read the whole book! ;-)

And can I say how much it is SO UNFAIR that he can lose so quickly?! Grrrrrr. ;-) I'm saying this with a wink and a smile because I really am happy for him...while I don't think he needs to lose weight, his gain since we have been together really bothers him and I honor his feelings about that. He has been working really hard this week and deserves success. I hope to be able to say the same for myself next week.

We will be packing up Doglet and heading inland a few miles to stay with the teens and baby for two nights starting tonight. This is the house where I garden so that will be really nice. And these kids (big and small) are really GREAT kids...while I would love to be able to be at our house this weekend, I am looking forward to kid fun. :-)

Here's a little something that The Universe sent to me this morning...I think it's appropriate for me getting back to being positive and working on making my weight a happy thing:

The baby steps in the beginning of a journey, Helen, always seem inadequate compared to the brilliance of the dream that inspired them. This is natural. If the dream wasn't so far "out there" and dazzling, it wouldn't be worth dreaming! Just don't be led to think that the physical ground you cover with your baby steps is all that they accomplish. Because for every mortal step you take, another cog in a giant wheel behind the curtains of time and space advances, and with it, 10,000 new possibilities.

Better than Star Trek,
The Universe

And you shall wonder, Helen, at what you ever did to deserve so very much....


Vickie said...

love the quote!!!

have a fun weekend!

Anonymous said...

You have been so successful in the past and understand your body and how it works, as well as how to evaluate diets and food plans. You know what to do, it's just a matter of being ready to actually DO it. Boy, do I get THAT!

It sounds as though you are in that place now and I'll be here cheering you on. I think you're awesome exactly where you are and look forward to seeing what you accomplish next.

LG said...

I really can't say anything more except to chime in and totally agree with what Anne said. You are in that place and you've been incredible successful (and in my opinion, still successful) in your weight loss.