Friday, January 25, 2008

Vacation...All I Ever Wanted! (with thanks to Go-Gos)

I'm totally and completely stressed out in preparation to leave for vacation tomorrow, but wanted to drop in here quickly with some updates and rants...

Weigh-in today SUCKED. I am down 0.4 only. This is inexplicable. I ate and drank nearly perfectly all week (after weekend, of course, but I wasn't really BAD then either) and exercised my butt off (well, apparently not). My clothes feel good, I think I'm looking better due to exercise if nothing else and I'm only down a measly .4?! What the FUCK?! I am really really frustrated. And I know I'll not be perfect next week with vacation so I only hope to counterbalance it with the exercise from skiing. I know that I could lose more weight and faster if I were more perfect, but I honestly believe in eating in a way that's sustainable long-term and I don't have much more I can cut out that I will be able to maintain long-term. :-( And I look at DB who is 9 years older than me, doesn't do any formal exercise and eats a bag of chips a day often. Maybe it's because he's a few inches taller, but it really bugs me...

And his theory about the Ski Coat Fiasco is that manufacturers don't make bigger women's sizes because there is no demand...how is there supposed to be a fucking demand when no one larger than a size 14 can get the ski gear to learn to ski and create the demand?! Oh man, I am still so mad about this. He actually laughed about it. I almost cried. He will never understand this. And I'm happy for him that he won't...that means he doesn't have to go through the pain, humiliation and disappointment that I do/have.

I did manage to find a nice XL women's ski coat that cost a fortune, but DB will buy it for me for my birthday. So anyway...

Crazy busy here at work getting ready to go away. My pending list of projects is almost 10 pages long. I'm extra nervous going away this time because my colleague who used to take up the slack when I went away (and I did for her) left the firm back in October and our new person is not up to speed yet enough to really be a help. But my bosses are amazing...and I'll have my cell phone on the ski slopes (and ability to work by computer if a total absolute emergency -- which is unfortunately possible as one of our major artists is in the middle of a huge project -- why does this always happen when I'm going on vacation?!).

Congrats to Vickie's class for all getting up in the wonderful wheel pose...supported counts! :-)

I'll miss my gym and yoga while I'm gone (although I will try to do SOME yoga on my own), but skiing is at least SOME exercise. I'm excited to get to the snow!!! And DB's birthday is Saturday and mine on February 4...lots of birthday action around here!!! :-)

I may check in a little while we're going (we have wifi at the condo) but, in the meantime, I'll miss everyone...be good! :-)

6 comments:

Lori said...

Have a great vacation!

I wonder if Eddie Bauer or L.L. Bean would have the larger sizes? I'm sorry that this got you so upset.

But your vacation sounds wonderful and DB is just a wonderful guy (but he should be since he's with the most wonderful girl!).

Have fun and don't worry about the weight. You're doing what you need to do. It will come off.

Vickie said...

have a wonderful time!

Sally Parrott Ashbrook said...

Comparing yourselves to men when it comes to weight loss/weight maintenance will ALWAYS drive a woman crazy.

.4 is a solid loss. Don't forget that you can gain muscle at the same time as you're losing fat. And overall, your body can go on pause sometimes before it picks back up with another loss.

Have a good, active vacation! I hope you have a blast.

Vickie said...

Miss you already and it is only Monday. . .

Vickie said...

Monday in yoga - I just needed a little push to get up into wheel - once up - I could hold it by myself. Two others only needed a little help too. Two did it by themselves. We also are working on Crow - several could balance easily by themselves - I need toes against the wall to balance.

Grumpy Chair said...

Hope you are enjoying your vacay!